Desire

😲

I miss you my dear old friend, even though you were bad for me.
Your dependency was always there, aware... that I needed you.
Didn`t you need me too?

We`d light up, whenever we`d meet.
Knowing someday we`d face the heat, of what it meant to be together...forever. You will be my best friend, and my breath longs to draw you in.

I get choked up, every now and then, but hell that happens to lifelong friends.
To put you out, made me cry. While inside I`m dying...trying to hold you once again.

I tend to reminisce, while you insist, to stay just outside our old haunts.
Every now and again, I see you. You`re with someone else, and I wish it were me; you breathed... your lies into.

I`m angry inside, because I must hide, this desire I still have for you.
Could there be that day, without regret...cigarette? You know, I`d give my last breath to you.

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Did you guess right off that it wasn`t about a relationship? 😂🤣Well maybe not in the traditional sense of the word.

I have long struggled with quitting smoking. I have taken sabbaticals, twice. Three years, each of those times. Not counting the week here or there, or maybe a month or two. Each time, I found my justification in going back.

Have you struggled like me?