Catastrophe or blessing how does one choose the reaction erupting when given the news Impulse wants to cry as logic seeks the odds I dare ask the question He replies in a nod Your signature is needed to participate in this Study we suspect a form of cancer please read, then give an answer Tests, tests...tests a procedure or two if you fail to pass diagnosis, is made plain to you Just a month ago, I wrote if I had my choice to die I`d rather my body give way than loose memories in my mind My prayer has been answered Not quite in the way I thought Yet when one receives grace Catastrophizing a blessing, is for naught "So let me tell you again that I love you let me feel the warmth of your embrace but if dying means that I must leave you Then I must... trust the hands of God`s grace"
I'm sorry and saddened for your news, Debra. I am also surprised by the method in which you were advised of the doctor's 'suspicion'. I am a cancer survivor of just over a year. Please reach out to me any time you like. 🩷🩷 I discovered a firm lack of emotional support during experience and I dont want anyone to feel that way. Ever.
I was stunned by it myself. The whole event felt so sterile and unfeeling. Maybe they've become numb to the delivery of such news.
Basically I await the procedure (on the 25th) and see what she says Dec 4th then I know I have 2 more procedures hopefully before deductible starts anew Jan 1st.
I admire the way you understand that the answer to your prayers is still an answer even though it doesn't appear the way you might want it to.
That was a hard thing for me to accept when I lost my girls. I had to accept responsibility for what happened and understand that it was the answer to my prayers for the best for them.
It did not seem to be the best for me at the time. And I had a hard time convincing myself that it was the best for them to be raised by strangers.
But after all these years, I know it was for the best.
Your situation is more serious than that, in that you're facing cancer. I know what that's like as well. It's scary.
But I'm happy to see that you have an enlightened understanding about it.
I know it still is scary and it hurts your soul, so my prayers are for you to be comforted and be at peace as much as is possible under the circumstances.
I'm sorry and saddened for your news, Debra. I am also surprised by the method in which you were advised of the doctor's 'suspicion'. I am a cancer survivor of just over a year. Please reach out to me any time you like. 🩷🩷 I discovered a firm lack of emotional support during experience and I dont want anyone to feel that way. Ever.
I was stunned by it myself. The whole event felt so sterile and unfeeling. Maybe they've become numb to the delivery of such news.
Basically I await the procedure (on the 25th) and see what she says Dec 4th then I know I have 2 more procedures hopefully before deductible starts anew Jan 1st.
I pray all goes well and the suspicion is false 🙏 Keep us aware, Debra.
Oh Debbie, no wonder your eyes teared up. You are such a good person and your demeanor reminds me of my dad's.
You wrote a beautiful poem!
Love,
H.
Thank you Harriet. Sometimes the best thing to do is lift your head and get on with it.
I've been offline mostly and jump on here and there.
I admire the way you understand that the answer to your prayers is still an answer even though it doesn't appear the way you might want it to.
That was a hard thing for me to accept when I lost my girls. I had to accept responsibility for what happened and understand that it was the answer to my prayers for the best for them.
It did not seem to be the best for me at the time. And I had a hard time convincing myself that it was the best for them to be raised by strangers.
But after all these years, I know it was for the best.
Your situation is more serious than that, in that you're facing cancer. I know what that's like as well. It's scary.
But I'm happy to see that you have an enlightened understanding about it.
I know it still is scary and it hurts your soul, so my prayers are for you to be comforted and be at peace as much as is possible under the circumstances.
Sending love and peace 💓✌️
We never know just how beautiful the view will be while we're weathering the storm.
I'm reaching for magnificent things 🙏 ✨️