Morning Musings

Good morning! My morning has started early, 3 am in fact. Wide awake, and full of gratitude. I`ve already accomplished quite a bit. Meds taken, breakfast for my brother and dishes washed.

My appointment went well. Yes, my disease progresses yet the testing I had did not show anything alarming that they were looking for. That I am grateful for. The majority of my issues stem from inflammation caused by my disease progression. I have to go back on steroids and take them for life now.

I had weened myself off after taking them for the past 6 years. They rob the body of calcium from my bones but without them my body revolts. Inflammation ensues and my body attacks itself. I made it almost eight months off. Though I been dealing with issues for over two months now. So, I surrender to the fact my quality of life on them is better. Gratitude, that something can help hold the line.

I took my first dose as soon as I got home and must say the difference this morning is remarkable. Even my mood this morning is one of hope instead of dread. Look out world here I come!

My doctor is a wonderful man. He is compassionate and has a great bedside manner. He breaks things down so I can understand and allows me to decide my care options. Keep writing, he says. My cognitive abilities are holding and he isn`t concern with where I am at this moment. We cross each bridge as it arrives, and I feel in control of what is happening to me. That is what makes him great!

He is also my brothers primary and took my brother as a patient, for me. He was concerned about me adding the care of my brother to my responsibilities but understood my reasoning. Purpose, he said, I see your brother aids you in feeling purposeful. He gets it and there is nothing more I can ask of him. It is important to have a doctor who you have a good repour with. It aids in helping face my prognosis and the challenges ahead.

The hope is within a few days, the inflammation will subside, and I can hurt less and move more. I`ll take it. I lost another 4.3 lbs. but maybe the steroids will hold any more weight loss to a minimum. That`s with eating two gallons of ice-cream since my prior visit. Usually, I wouldn`t mind shedding a few pounds, but it is muscle mass I am losing.

Soon, we will be leaving to take my brother to wound care. While he is in the clinic, I will visit my friend who is still in the hospital. The facilities are next to each other.

Granny is on the mend I stopped and saw her before my appointment yesterday. She has been getting around so much better. Hopefully soon she will drive over to visit Billy. They miss each other. 💞

Then the rest of the day I will putter with housework and meal planning. I might even nap, do a puzzle or painting this afternoon. Letting the day unfold as it begun, with gratitude.

✨Be the Light