Locked Loaded and Triggered

Well, so much has taken place this past week. Where do I start?

My week started with an appointment to the heart and vascular doctor for my brother. He will have stents put in his leg mid-May. This is like the surgery he had last Sept on the front of his legs. It used to be called vein-stripping. Local anesthetic, because he cannot undergo deeper anesthetic.

After wound care

I got him home, comfortable and fed before my appointment that afternoon. Nothing major, just the annual squishing of the boobs necessary all women my age have to endure. I received my chiding for letting two years laps since my last exam. What can I say? I had stuff going on and well, I put it off. All came back good, and I will resume my yearly schedule from this point on. Unless…. 🤔 Nah, I will get it all back on track. 😉😊

I then checked in on my friend who is very ill, to visit and help out. I have been popping over (she lives close enough I walk over) since her last hospital stay. Yesterday morning I went over when she didn`t answer the phone. I found her on the couch, where she slept. She did not look good, nor was she making sense. Immediately I got ahold of her family and her son was over in mins. An ambulance was called, and she is currently in the hospital. Doing much better, she was septic. Caught before organ involvement.

The rest of this week entailed, the wound clinic for bro, foot doctor for me (plantar`s wart treatment) it`s all gone now but I am to apply foot cream 2x a day. Yeah, I`ll pencil that in. (sarcasm, I will try) But if something in the schedule of life has to give, it is usually my, self-care.

Since my first caregiver support group I joined, right here on Substack, I have been more mindful of carving out time for myself more. My first zoom meeting was this past Wednesday. I announced to everyone I would be unavailable. I set an alarm and took that hour.

I found out that I genetically tested positive for alpha 1 antitrypsin. Combine that with my positive biopsy for alpha synuclein protein dysfunction, and you have the explanation for all my wonderful health issues. All rare, from what I read. How delightful to know I am made up of every rare dysfunction the body has to offer. And they say the Alpha`s beat the Omegas, lol 😂😉🤔

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Yes, sarcasm again, but used in jest. Why? It isn`t what happens to you as much as it is how you handle what is happening to you. I crack jokes or mock my condition as to conquer it. Like taming a wild horse into submission, so that you may ride it. And riding this crazy life of mine, is one I will conquer! 💪🏼😎

The news was followed by texts to my children so they may inform their doctors on what to look for. It is genetically inherited. Sorry girls, no diamonds or wealth, just some messed up genes. 😂🥳🥹

Maybe my youngest, who is showing signs of the same issues I had at her age, will not have to endure years of doctors passing it off as all in your head or anxiety. Don`t get me wrong, I love the doctors that I have/had, who took the time to see past the normality of reg. testing and who delved further into finding out what could be hidden beneath the everyday that they see. They hold a special spot in my heart for they validated my experience that others didn`t care to try to name.

I`d rather hear- I don`t know- than it`s all in your head (because they didn`t look past the prescription pad)

Lastly to share this week, I have had this for a bit. It started as an ache and well, once you take a glimpse, you`ll see how aggravating such a “minor” issue can be.

Trigger finger

Trigger finger! Who could have thought up such dysfunction? This dang thing catches on everything. It aches so bad. I can pop it back into an upright position but the minute I use my hand to grasp something, (like my shorts, or coffee mug, etc.) it locks again. The pain isn`t only in the joints of the finger, it radiates up my arm to my shoulder than to the base of my neck. I`m sick of it to say the least. PITA for sure. Today I will venture out to find a splint for it of some kind. Maybe I`ll craft one from a popsicle stick and medical tape? 🤔

I am not dressed yet. A must needed shower comes first. But I am trying to maintain at least two articles a week until such time I may write everyday again. I am reading and commenting when I get a few mins. I also try and drop a note here and there.

So, to end this piece as I begun:

I am locked into a tight schedule of must dos.

I am loaded with will, even if energy lags.

I am triggered by this dang finger, catching my cup and spilling it to the floor!

✨Be the Light

Tomorrow begins a new week- I am sure it will bring new adventures.

Like the play on words for the title? (Sarcasm- it gets you through the day)