Light Within the Darkness

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I have climbed mountains made from muscles torn and tortured and hardened by time.

Muscles who's sensory has been made numb so that the brain would not register the betrayal of touch.

Stoic in my travel, I earnestly unravel why neuropathy stings as it burns the pathways of trust.

I have ridden the raging rapids released from years of tears... suppressed.

Tears so turbulent and clear that have been filtered through the sediments of love, loss and fear.

I have torn open my flesh daring those who stare, to glimpse inside where my dreams once died.

Could you have survived such a ride, while death whispered and beckoned just outside?

The mirror reflects, while the eyes deflect the full measure of my rage.

I resist the temptation to uncage explanation as to ease the ugly I buried, and you might find.

For if I dared, meet your stare to do unto others as done unto me.
I`d only add time to the prison... inside... and my soul longs to be free.

I have walked in the darkness where there was not light, and screams whisper to end my plight.

Haunted and taunted I battled on making peace with forgiveness. With God as my witness, I would not hold them in damnation.

I begged and prayed that he would show them grace...unburdening my soul. I didn`t want the weight of hate when my time comes to journey home.

My certainty in the infinity some place into question with projection of their doubts and fears. 

Oh, how sincere... your sneer I can see.

I do not ask of you... what you deny in me. I reserve the right to write my life in mystery.

The depth of love I carry scares me at times. I am a seeker of truth.

Truth grounds reality, for me. Without truth I can`t trust, and trust is a must when you`ve been broken into pieces like me.

Performance is for theaters and acting is for show. Medals are for the athletes, and I for one, do not worship gold.

I am me 
I am light
I am love 

I am, I am 

✨Be the Light

Can I help her heal in her what still aches in me?