Dear Mom
Dear Mom,
I can`t believe it`s been so long.
I miss you; I really miss you.
Your smile, your laugh; my God that laugh, it had us all in stitches.
Yes, even those aspects of you I detested, I miss because they were part of who made you, you. I can say that now because I didn`t understand back then, and I`m sorry I didn`t ask or inquire what made you hurt the way you did.
Through it all though it drove me to reach for those things that were unattainable for you, in those days.
I fought to be independent and uncontrolled. Secretly I believe you wanted that for me. I saw how you stood against what you could, but I don`t blame you anymore for what you couldn`t.
I get it now Mom, that song you would sing; “You are my Sunshine”.
It makes me smile every time I hear it. I hope you see I`ve been shining for the both of us, for them…. the future. The daughters who will walk on unafraid and unchained from domestic servitude.
Forgive me Mom for not realizing all the things I have come to understand since you left 19 years ago today. But please know one thing for sure, I have always loved you, always!
Yeah, I believe you know because on that side of the realm truth is light and light is source.
Thank you, Mom. For our last words spoken to me, alone in the hospital. I needed to hear that, and I hope you embraced my response because I meant every, EVERY word when I said I was proud to call you, my mother.
Bill is extra quiet today and I`m sure our brother, your eldest son, has you in his heart too.
Please come to me visually. I miss the site of you. I miss your embrace, it`s been too long.
“Your girl” misses her momma, ok
Run free through the galaxies Mom, until I see you again.
💖Your baby girl
A day of remembrance, peace and love.
✨Be the Light
💞